An irreverent look at motherhood and family life in a new state of normal.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Dr. Appointment

Went to the Dr. She stripped my membranes but I only had contractions for about 3 hours after that. Depressing. I am so annoyed. I was only 2-3 centimeters dilated and my cervix was thin but I really can't be induced until March 3rd. That's a whole week away. I don't really care except that my mom has to leave on the 18th and that really doesn't give us much time after the baby is born to get into a groove. Maybe I'll be ok. I don't know. I'm just tired of starting and stopping. I think what made me the most angry was that after a week of "work" I had not progressed one bit. I can't wait for the induction. Will update if there is any more information.

Heading Out to the Dr.

Today I head out to the doctor at 4. Yes, my appointment was originally at 10 am but they called and switched me to later because the Dr. was out of the office or something. I think it's just to torture me. So here I am trying to decide whether I should bake cupcakes with the words I'M READY on them and try and beg for an induction or just let go of the guilt and not worry about it anymore. I'm not THAT uncomfortable. I'm just guilty about getting everyones hopes up over and over with the contractions and dilation and all that. I really just want to get it all over with so we can get into a schedule. But with my Murphy's Law life, I know I will be dragging this out until the actual due date or beyond because that's what happens to me. Here's how I know I'm cursed:

I got a kidney stone DURING MY PREGNANCY!

Right after the kidney stone, Andy's mom rushed down to help us get it together. I was fine until the day she left when I got the flu. I am still hacking up a lung every day from that. And of course, I'm pregnant and HUGE and I really feel like with every cough, I am going to smash out little baby.

I was going into labor and my mom rushed out from CO costing her several hundred dollars and my sister her free babysitter, then my labor basically stopped and she has been here for a week just putzing around with me...

If I had not had my mother come out, I would have this kid already and she would have missed the birth. We all know it's true!

In the last 6 weeks of my pregnancy, I found out I won't have a job next year, Abby waffled back and forth between potty training and waiting causing clean ups on the FLOOR when I can't even see my own feet, and my husband is working more than he has all year.

Despite all this, I think I'm going to make it. Suddenly last night, after finding out we had money problems that I didn't know about... I decided that none of it mattered anymore. I'm just going to sit down on the couch, watch Project Runway and zone out from the world until Cate is born. I can only do one thing at a time and I'm creating life here, people.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Abby's Birthday

As the supposedly impending birth draws ever closer (again I say supposedly as I am having contractions but nothing to write home about and have been for a WEEK!!!!), I have been thinking about what to do about my daughters birthday. I am actually due on that day and I didn't want to have yet another non-birthday for her. It's her second one and we needed to do it up right this time. I really wanted to have a tea party so I went ahead and planned it early. We invited her friends and got food and decorations and the works. My mom is here to help me get it together for the birth and she did all the decorating, cooking and cleanup. Therefore, it turned out perfectly because she is a party genius! Here are some pictures.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Adventures in Water

So my mom is here and you would think that would totally make everything ok. It does. But she left for a few minutes to get a breather and take a little walk in the beautiful weather we are having and I decided to give Abby some lunch. As I was cleaning up, I heard a drip drip drip down under my sink.

Crap... I open the cupboard and sure enough. Our sink pipes were completely undone and all the water was leaking down into the cupboard. I opened it up, cleaned out all the stuff, and Abby helped me put towels down to clean up the water. I can't use that sink. So I decided I would take a shower but with all the chemicals out and Abby loving to put those bottles in her mouth and suck out whatever is in, and my mom still on her walk, I took Abby in the bathroom with me and put her to brushing her teeth while I showered. Suddenly, I hear her talking, which should NOT be happening if she had the toothbrush still in her mouth. She has gotten into the guest shampoo basket and is pouring out bottles of stolen hotel shampoo all over the toilet she is standing on. She is saying, "Bye bye shoap." I freak out but I'm soaped up and shampooed and as I stand there telling her, "No, don't touch!" in a frantic voice, the shampoo leaks into my eyes and I'm blinded. I feel around for my toddler, get her off the toilet before she slips and falls and gets the next great time travel idea, and get her sitting on the floor. I rinse as fast as possible, get out, clean up the spilled shampoo and just as I am finally getting the discipline thing done with Abby, I hear my mom coming up the stairs. She has missed the whole episode.

Hope she is having a great vacation. LOL!!!

Friday, February 19, 2010


After several days of going into light contractions every night and wondering and wondering, I'm getting tired of the wondering. I have been getting about 3-4 hours of sleep a night as I lay in my bed thinking my water will break at any moment. Then I go out and watch crappy TV for a while and cry about the fact that everything hurts and is it for a reason? I wish I could get checked every now and then to know how I'm progressing but I don't have an OBGYN at the house here and I just have to deal.

Yesterday my mother got here and she has already relieved the stress off me AGAIN. It's so nice to have her here and just being around. Andy doesn't feel like he has to do EVERYTHING! He is such a good husband. He deserves to have a break and a BIG PARTY thrown for him. Anyway, today my mom and I went shopping for groceries and as we walked down the cereal aisle, we heard water dripping. I looked down and there was a puddle under me. I freak out. "Mom, is that ME?!" She looks and looks, "No, there is nothing coming from you. But that is weird." I totally thought my water broke right there in the store but it didn't. I was trailing hand soap that had broken and was leaking out of my cart. Talk about a scare. I looked at my mom and said, "That would have been classic."

Hopefully, I won't continue to be the Murphy's Law of pregnancy but I will keep the FB world updated and if anything fantastic happens, I will be blogging... HA! Even if it's from a hospital bed!

Thursday, February 18, 2010

When It Rains...

Started having contractions this week. At first, they were just Braxton Hicks and it wasn't that bad. Then they got worse and worse and I was in pain. I had an appointment with the Dr. the next day and since the contractions weren't regular, I just waited. 2 cm dilated and starting to thin so I was happy that I wasn't in pain for nothing... But Mom (Andy's) left and I was still recovering from having the flu and then Abby got the flu. Can it get any worse? Then relief! My mom, although I told her not to, decided to change her ticket and get here TODAY! I'm going to get her at the airport and let me tell you, I have not been this happy since I picked up Andy's mom...

There is something about Mom's and the way they take care of you that is just awesome. When Abby is sick, she just wants to cuddle with me. Although I am sad that she feels yucky, I love being the one she want's to cuddle with and that she sits on my lap for longer than the duration of a book. When I am not feeling top notch, my mommy is the one I want around. She knows just what I want, soup and sleep and she does everything in my house similarly to how I would do it so I know that everything is in good hands. I love her. I miss her and I can't wait to see her tonight.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Valentines Nightmare

Andy and I are not big Valentines people. We have always said we love each other and he gets me flowers or something but it's never been a BIG deal for us. This year, with all the issues - me being pregnant, sick, and stressed over the coming events in our lives - I decided to take advantage of the fact that Andy's mom is still here and suck it up and go out on a fancy, expensive date regardless of how cruddy I felt. I drugged myself up on Tylenol Flu and got dressed. We headed out to a new Italian place where the food was fantastic. As I walked through the restaurant to use the bathroom, people were staring at me the whole way, hoping that I would suddenly give birth next to their table. (In their defense, I was holding my stomach and wincing the whole way there and back as the baby was punching me in the bladder and I'm sure I'm going to give birth to Sugar Ray Leonard.) I packed in as much of the food as I could, dealing with the pain of my little boxer using my organs as punching bags, and we headed out to a movie. Thank goodness the theater is right there next to the restaurant. My Tylenol was wearing off as we took our seats. There were VERY few people in the theater which was good as I sniffled and snuffled and tried not to hack up a lung through the whole thing. Once the movie was over, Andy held my hand as I waddled to the car thinking that I will never leave the house again. Last night I coughed so hard, I thought my water would break. Andy slept on the couch. I can't believe our Valentines Day was so miserable but we did get out and I can tell you this, after all that, my husband still loves me. That is the best Valentine's gift any girl can get - the knowing that no matter what kind of seething mass of germs, snot and fat, pregnancy hormones you may become, you have a man who will love you through it all and always be able to help you see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Friday, February 12, 2010

Girl's Night Out

A couple of nights this week, me and some of my friends took a girls night out. It was awesome. We left our kids, we just hung out and I have had so much fun just talking and laughing and having a good time. Last night we stayed out late. I came home tired but happy.

Sadly, I have been having some bad symptoms again. I'm "sick" with those dang aches and pains (the first sign I had the last kidney stone) and I have the heart burn. The bigger the stone, the worse the heart burn. I'm glad my mother-in-law is still here. I'm hoping I can make it through the weekend but I don't know. If I don't get better from all these stupid health problems soon, I'm just going to curl up and cry. I'll probably do that anyway? There are two and a half weeks between Andy's mom leaving and my mom coming in. How am I going to do those two and a half weeks? And am I sick or do I have yet another stone? I'm such a mess and I just wish it was all over.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Every bump and tickle

Now that I have had kidney stones, contractions, and a trip to the ER, I am totally sensitive to every little bump and tickle. I'm crazy because every time I feel some little thing, I start to get worried and I don't want to deal with it. I have these pills that the doctor gave me (heavy duty pain killers from the kidney stones) and I'm tempted to take one all the time but I hesitate and then wait and then don't. I have taken half a pill several times but I never take them in a row and never more than one per strange pain. It's got me going a little nuts.

The other day, I had contractions, real ones, all day but they were not regular. So I didn't do anything about them and they went away. I had dreams that my water was breaking and that my mom was going to miss the birth. I was on the phone crying to her in every dream, apologizing that I couldn't hold it in any longer. They say the second kid comes out easier and sometimes early. How many of you had your second kid faster, easier, etc...?

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Yet another stone?

Unless you see the stone on the ultrasound or the x-ray or whatever looks into your system, or see it come out, you can't tell whether you really have a kidney stone. I'm not sure that this pain I'm experiencing now is a stone although it is intense enough for me to take a pill and go to bed. I have never been so glad that my mother in law was here. She is taking care of me and Andy (he has a cold and has been sleeping it off all day) and Abby. It's crazy to think where we would be she were not here today and for the next week or so.

Believing that this is a kidney stone and being in pain, I have resumed taking drugs every now and then. I have discovered that half a pill is all I need. Remember how I get on drugs. At the ER, they totally gave me two huge pills and I was loopy enough to stand up and swing my hospital issued robe around my head. I took one when I came home. That knocked me flat on my back for the whole morning. This time, I took half a pill and was feeling no pain but I am able to function. One more of these stupid stones and I'm going to die. Really...

Mom has taught Abby her letters, how to sing songs to herself, and she has been helping with the never ending potty training. She does laundry, cleans up and generally makes herself totally indispensable. I hope she never leaves. LOL! Crazy to say that about my mom in law but it's kinda true.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Mom in Law

Toward the end of the kidney stone incident, my mother-in-law called her son and asked how he was doing. Sensing his desperation, as he was taking care of our toddler, dealing with the house, dog and still working full time, she called me and asked if I needed any help. Now I was drugged up and didn't need an help as Andy was doing all the work but HE needed help. I didn't realize how much he was doing until he came home and fell into bed leaving me drugged and with a toddler on my hands. He was really tired and needed a break from it all. When I started to feel less in a fog, I could see that between Academy life and parenthood, we were barely treading water. Mom is here now. She came down and when I went to pick her up at the airport, I almost started crying I was so relieved there was another set of hands. She has helped us catch up on housework and school work by watching Abby. I finally feel like there is light at the end of a very dark and dirty tunnel that is the time between now and recovery after the delivery.

In other news, I did not keep the kidney stone. It has been sent to the little kidney stone heaven as all bio-waste should be. It was quite large but it is gone now and I'm feeling much better. It's hard to say that I'm fine now as there is a 36 week old fetus sitting on my pelvis waiting to emerge but I do praise God every day that I'm not in the excruciating pain I was in before.